As I’m learning, grief is a complex emotion. I don’t believe you are ever completely healed from it. I recently lost my mom. This has been one of the most emotionally painful things I have gone through. Trying to understand all of the different emotions I am feeling has been difficult. So you may be wondering how how can one find happiness in a time of grief?
My mom’s passing made me stop and reevaluate my life. I realized life is so short and you should never put off the things you enjoy doing or that you want to do (i.e., your bucket list) waiting for the right time. That time may never come. Even though my mother was ill, her passing was surprised.
I’m extremely grateful that I was able to spend 2 months with her. During this time with her in the hospital and rehab facility she and I spent the time together that we needed. She shared stories of her past as well as spiritual encounters.
My mother helped me realize that all work and no play makes for a very unhappy and out of balance life. I reevaluated my life and I realized that I hadn’t made time to do anything of the things I love doing or even for myself. I was spending most of my time working on my business which really doesn’t bring my any joy – it’s a job.
So I made the decision that I wasn’t going to put off doing the things that I love to do, the things that make me happy, the things that bring me joy.
The first thing I did is sign up for ballroom dancing classes. My mother started tap dancing when she was in her 50s. She shared with me a week before she passed that dancing gave her life purpose. I had danced most of my life. I gave it up when I met my husband almost 20 years ago. My mother and I had always talked about taking ballroom classes together but for one reason or another it never happened.
So I signed up for lessons and I’m loving every minute of it. I have also made time each weekend to be creative. I enjoy sewing, painting and all types of crafts. Within the last month, I have sew pillows, clothes and painted a number of different paintings.
I have known for some time that I have spiritual gifts. However, these gifts have allowed me to stay in contact with my mom. She was with me when the hospital called and let me know that she passed away and she came to me later that night to let me know that she was dancing and able to breathe again. She was happy.
Through this extremely difficult time in my life, it has opened my eyes and my mind to our true purpose. We are meant to be happy, to enjoy life and to live everyday to the fullest. I have been shown that my purpose is to spread this message to all.
Even though a day doesn’t go by that I don’t miss my mom terribly, I bring happiness into my life doing those things that gives my life purpose. What do you enjoy doing that gives your life purpose? Are you doing it?
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